I think this was made for you ♥

My dear love,

Happy blessed birthday jason wong from 850 miles away! Since we couldn't spend it together,this is the best birthday gift i can possibly give to you. 

It's been more than 3 years since you came into my life when i needed you the most. I've been sitting here thinking. Sometimes it feels like 3 days have just passed, sometimes it feels like already a lifetime. All i care about is to feel your presence everyday. Although sometimes we fight we still always find our way back to each other. You see,that really works! Thanks for being my everything. 

Today is your SOLO day,i know you must be having fun out there(Ugh!) Doesn't matter what you end up doing,what counts is that you're really happy on your very 19th birthday! I look forward to celebrating your 100th birthday in 2093 with you too! And of course i'll say this everyday and i'll say it again,I love you JW!

Yours forever,sy.

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I'm a space bound rocket ship 

and your heart's the moon

And i'm aiming right at you...

right at you...

right at you...

MY LIFE AS A STUDENT

till then!

Keep myself to myself

I have the whole world to myself,everything was mine for the taking. Somedays i feel contented but something is missing. Undoubtedly I'm an overthinker,which leads to misery. Sometimes i really hope to go unnoticed. Sometimes i seek for an identity,a sense of belongings. I'm so complex,i'm confused. I don't like to explain myself,and quite obviously nobody can understand me too well either. 

To behonest. I was once a competitive person,even if i don't show it. Within this entire society,prevailing culture manipulates human mind,triggers desire to win power,fame,wealth,beauty,honor. I always feel inadequate in some way,i must admit,i hate competition but i'm competitive. Perhaps partially because i've overlooked gratitude in my life,or was hoping too much for acceptance. However,pride and victory cannot fill this empty heart. As i grow older,i'm fear of competing. I knew i don't want to sell my soul to greed and desires,my biggest enemy is the inner me. So i have to constantly remind myself that i'm blessed,contented,satisfied,in all good and bad times. 

I'm neither sad nor depressed/emo,just random thoughts occurred. And is hiding in my comfy dark room where distractions are minimal. Ok,i've been completely honest with you right now,these are all the shitz that stuck in my head,the things i keep in my mind to protect my ego. If you can understand what i'm talking about then you're a genius. Yeah should write more about my daily life instead of this content-heavy post. MMmmmm.....

You know what. I love her smoky voice. Always been one of my favorite,and i'd listen to this song over and over again.